> Extracted from dated notes. Each section is one bit/idea, separated by ---. Source file noted.

I recently learned that one cause of physical erectile dysfunction.

Riding your bike more than six hours a week

And this is devastating because not only do I ride my bike so much that I wear a helmet every day

Source: Monday 8-18-25This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

When I was a kid, I would use my ADHD to get one of those free flash passes at Six Flags

I'm neurodivergent so I can skip the line

Either either they're giving you this pass because they don't think you can wait online

But I can wait on any line to keep myself occupied that's what ADHD is

I could just count the amount of feet in front of me and behind me and then do the math on how long it'll take me to get to the front of the line

And I realize that I say that that just feels really similar to describing autism

Source: Monday 8-18-25This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

I want a doctor with experience

A busy doctor

I want my doctor to be so busy that he's considering breaking the Hippocratic oath

I want him to be so sleep deprived he's thinking about how cool it would be if he were committed to a mental asylum

I want him thinking about jello

Source: Monday 8-18-25This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

I quit smoking weed a while ago but I'm still talking to my drug dealer

Because he's also my psychiatrist

And he has no chill

Every week he's like: let's up your dosage

Source: Monday 8-18-25This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

I drink so much coffee it cancelled out my anxiety

Can't be anxious if I'm taking a huge morning shit

Source: Monday 8-18-25This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

One of the side effects of propetia is ED and that's ~~cool~~ okay

Because now I have an excuse

And I think I'm Not okay

But I would Be more okay if I was fit

I can't be getting fat and having dick problems

If my penis worked I think I'd be okay with a little Fupa

Because my penis goes and that's all id need

I think my hair is more important than anything

Because I stopped anti depressants a while ago because one of the side effects was dick problems

And then I started finasteride which also causes

—> Depression (NBD it's 2026 and depression has been normalized)

Dick problems

And that's crazy that something the texans would call "fine ass to ride" makes it impossible to cum

But something that makes me nervous is that the side effects have already started. My sex drive is lower than the odds we convict Epstein (because he's dead) and my hair is still thinning

My dick is just hanging there and I'm just thinking "any day now… my hair will come back and my penis problems would actually be a problem"

—> any day now, I will be able to get a haircut that my barber will not be able to take credit for

—> I really am nervous about my hair, and my ED, and my willingness to take a pill that has that sort of effect on me

Source: Monday 2-2-26This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

This mustache and beanie is a dangerous combo

Without it, I look like I haven't come to terms with. Hair thinning

And I can't lose my hair —> I also can't keep my hair

This voice does not match a bald man If I was bald with this voice people would think "so the Chemo isn't going well"

I can't go bald. My personality isn't good enough to support being bald on top of being bipolar asthmatic and Jewish

But also, with the hat

I look

Like a hipster

And not just any hipster

I look like I'm going to judge you for picking the wrong kind of craft beer

"Oh pumpkin spice? I guess you didn't get the memo. Beer isn't bad coffee"

—> this beanie is the only thing that helps me fit in in Brooklyn

Source: Monday 2-2-26This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

so a while ago, there was this movie called Idiocracy and it was about how in the future idiots in the future. We are all idiots America. It's just run by idiots.

It's crazy you realize we're in the future. This is the future.

I recently started using caffeine shampoo.

Which is supposed to help with hair growth

And I was in the shower today

And I saw it said, recharges your hair

The shampoo bottle says hair recharger

And I bought it

I put caffeine in my hair

I believe I really do I believe that the science is there that caffeine will help my hair grow much in the way that caffeine helps me do my work

Not the caffeine actually helps me finish my work, but it helps me leave for a moment that I can do my work and maybe that's what's gonna happen to my hair follicles

Like it won't help my hair finish growing, but it will help it start like it'll give it a little bit of belief in itself

Source: Monday 2-2-26This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

My insurance just ended

So I have to stop going to therapy

I'm saving money and stashing trauma

More money more problems

Source: Monday 10-6-25This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

I feel so gross after a run but I also feel very good

Because I feel like I'm better than other people

And that's worth feeling gross

Source: Thursday 7-24-25This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

I look good naked

When I haven't eaten for 10 hours

So I only take my clothing off at the end of my fast

Source: Tuesday 10-21-25This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

My favorite part about waking up is looking in the mirror realizing I'm as skinny as I'll get that day

And waking up to text messages

Source: Tuesday 10-21-25This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

I've been learning about this thing

Performative males

Like men who act a certain way around women

Men who read in public

That's really unfortunate because I like reading

But I don't want women to like me

So I have to hide my books

Source: Tuesday 10-21-25This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

I've never gone to the dentist and gotten good news

They'll take an x ray

And it's never "you're teeth integrity is through the roof"

It's always "You're tooth is in the process of exploding"

"Your mouth will be a bloodbath"

Source: Friday 12-5-25This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

It takes me a while to cum

My hope is that I cum before the end of this set

But it probably won't happen

Source: Friday 12-5-25This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

I've been bringing my notebook to bed

First thing I do and last thing I do is write a joke

My notebook is getting more action than me

Source: Friday 12-5-25This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

I'm very judgemental

It's something I don't like about myself

I'm judging you right now

And I like what I see

I have allergies

To cats

Dogs Cockroaches Pollen shellfish

I only know I'm allergic to cockroaches because I got tested

And the doctor made me snort a cockroach

But sometimes I'll walk into a room and I won't know what why but I'll start sneezing and coughing

And until I know the real reason

All I know is

Something about this room is killing me

Usually it's the carpet

I'm not allergic

I just hate carpets

Source: Thursday 12-11-25This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

I have a little roll of fat on my belly

Actually I have like 3 rolls of fat, and when I suck in, somehow there is another roll?

Sitting sucks because my belly fat bunches up on it self and reminds me of the fact that I've gained like 15 pounds in the last 3 months

It kind of feels like my belly fat is teaming up on me

Source: Tuesday 2-24-26This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

I would do anything to keep my hair

So I started taking finasteride. I know I'd do anything to keep my hair because the side effects are decreased libido, erectile dysfunction, reduced ejaculate volume, and depression.

Honestly that's totally fine with me. I guarantee I will also be depressed if I lose my hair

—> If I could keep my hair, I would ___

Source: Wednesday 2-25-26This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

I've been using caffeine shampoo to help combat my hair loss

I've been combating hair loss with hair growth

And I think if I started earlier right, I would've been OK with breaking even

Because I waited so long

Lotta people they're really grumpy. They had their coffee in the morning

personally.

Don't talk to me until I've had

My hair back

Talk to you in a few years

After my trip to Turkey, because I don't think this is gonna work

I kind of hope that they did test the caffeine and shampoo on animals

Because if I was a monkey and I was balding

I'd like a full head of hair

—> Caffeine shampoo is great for when I'm out of coffee, because that shit wakes you the fuck up when it gets in your eyes

Source: Monday 1-26-26This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

My hair is thinning and is it just me

But when I'm in the shower and I shampoo and look at my hands, I kinda look at my hands like Tobey Maguire looked out of his hands in the first Spider-Man when he realized he was about to be able to walk up that wall

My life is about to change

My body is goin through changes

Source: Sunday 1-25-26This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

I'm afraid of losing my hair because you can't ask someone to grow old with you and also be bald

It's less "I wanna see what you look like with gray hair" And more "I wanna see you with hair"

So I'm speeding up my search

No time to fall in love slowly

More like I gotta cliff jump and hope there's love at the bottom

No slow burns

Only spontaneous combustion

Source: Tuesday 2-24-26This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

I ate taco ball last night and went on a 6 mile run today

I swear my stomach is about to turn into a white man who just moved to Mexico

Source: Friday 9-19-25This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

I think I give a nervous vibe

Like I'm a skunk that doesn't want to spray you trying to sneak by without making a scene

Source: Wednesday 10-29-25This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

I'm a pacifist

In other words

I'm a huge pussy

But sometimes you can't avoid a fight so I've training to get choked out

The way I've been trainin is with auto erotic asphyxiation

I've been choking myself

So worst case, he chokes me out

I cum

And then he's left wondering, who really won?

Source: Tuesday 2-24-26This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

I'm afraid to get in a fight during the winter

I refuse to get knocked out by someone wearing mittens

So I'm gonna get up close and personal to make use of my stocky frame that I got from wrestling

Because I feel like I'll start to fight but then I won't be able to finish the job because I'm just happy someone is touching me and sharing their warmth

—> and he'll be choking me and I'll just be like "don't take your hands off me. They're so warm"

Like if we clinch up, I'm not letting go. You're body heat is vital

Only way this could get better is if we were naked and in a sleeping bag together

Source: Sunday 1-25-26This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

I wanna be so hot I can get away with adult acne

I wanna be so hot that anytime people are talking about global warming. They're talking about me

—> I wanna be so hot, that I'm on equal footing with people who are 6ft tall. So like really hot. REALLY HOT.

—> I wanna be so hot that people lie and say they like me for my personality

Source: Tuesday 2-3-26This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

Hair loss pills can cause ED

So I've been thinking about getting a doctor's note for ED

Because I've been sleeping with a university professor

—> The doctor's note would read " my dick doesn't work either. My wife hasn't left me"

Source: Thursday 2-5-26This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

So I think I would do anything to keep my hair I know because if you told me that the only way for me to keep my hair was to put a pill up my butt I wouldn't even blink. I mean, I would yelp.

Source: Thursday 2-5-26This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

I've been having trouble with my bike

It's crazy because part of what you're paying for is an environment

I'm riding my bike so much that my taint is not becoming an aid come in ain't

I'm pretty sure I have a bruised finger bruised sphincter

I'm pretty sure I don't have a set of balls anymore. I have two individual balls like that but nothing to do with each other.

I feel like my testicles are undergoing the diaspora they've been kicked out of their whole land homeland.

Taint -> ain't

Source: Monday 3-2-26This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

Apparently therapy is a thing among republicans.

That's kind of cool, To be learning about boundaries as we're about to invade Greenland.

Source: Sunday 1-25-26This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.

My favorite part about my biceps is my triceps

Source: Monday 3-2-26This file never made it to this site. There's some truly random shit I write in my notes and I can't share it all.